Joan Franka, the singer who represented the Netherlands in the Eurovision Song Contest in 2012, did things at the time that she didn’t fully support. The 33-year-old singer then talks about wearing the much-discussed Indian headdress during her performance in Baku, where the Eurovision Song Contest was taking place at the time. “I didn’t want to wear that at all in Azerbaijan. But yeah, we’re going to do that trim, they said. I also didn’t get the feeling that I could really say no to that,” says Joan on RTL 4’s ‘Better Than Ever’.

“I blame myself for not following my intuition, for getting ahead of myself”

Joan participated in the first season when she was 20 years old The voice of the Netherlands Following her involvement, she worked with producers with whom she also collaborated during the talent show. When she wrote the song ‘You and I’, her manager entered her in the National Song Contest. There she competed against others The voice-candidates. “That’s where the first tipping point started for me. What hurt me was my manager saying, hey Joan, look at yourself. You really don’t look good. You really need to lose weight. Because look next to you. Don’t you want to be like that?” says Joan in the episode that can already be seen on Videoland and will air on RTL 4 on Thursday.

On her performance in the Eurovision Song Contest, Joan says that “it may not have been the best performance”. “But a lot of things preceded it, so the performance wasn’t how it normally would be,” says the singer. For example, Joan found it difficult that her mother and her sister, with whom she formed a ‘trinity’, could not go to Baku for the first two weeks. “I begged, like, can my mom come over? But they let me bring a stylist and someone for my hair and someone for my makeup, even a nail stylist if I wanted.”

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The second week Joan’s mother and sister were present, but the singer hardly saw them due to all kinds of obligations. She describes that week as ‘very lonely’. She was also not allowed backstage on the day of her performance. There was Joan alone with her manager, who visited just before showtime. “She said: It’s you and me We did this together.” As a result, Joan woke up ‘from some kind of bad dream’ that she had been living. “I thought: I don’t want this at all. I don’t want to stay here with you. I want to be here with my mother, my sister. This was the moment when I thought: who am I? Where I am? What am I doing? What am I here for?”

After her performance, Joan entered the dressing room. There was his manager who allegedly said that Joan “ruined everything.” At the end of the day, Joan was in her hotel room throwing up because she was “so exhausted.” When she tried to call someone from the crew, no one answered. Upon returning home, Joan no longer wanted to work with her team. One problem was that her Joan was still under contract and she had to buy everything. The first offer made by the record company so that Joan could buy her part was 30,000 euros, but the singer had no money. The offer eventually fell, after which someone else bought it.

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In total, Joan hasn’t been able to make music for two years. Today, Ella Joan still blames herself for signing a contract she didn’t want to sign. “I blame myself for not following my intuition, for getting ahead of myself, for being afraid to share this for too long.”

After her involvement, Joan created the alter ego Luba the Baroness, which helped her gain self-confidence. “Luba really saved me and I think a part of her will always live in me. Now, a few years ago, I decided that I’m just Joan Franka again. I really want to sing, it has also changed a lot. I have matured, my voice is more formed. I think I sing more like I really am.”

AVROTROS can no longer remember exactly what Joan’s participation in Eurovision was like in 2012. A spokesperson for AVROTROS informed the ANP when asked. “I can say that the Eurovision Song Contest has now become an extremely professional project in which the artist and AVROTROS work closely together to conquer Europe. Fortunately, we see that this approach is also successful.”

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